help me if you can!

i called my dad today because i need something
and i kind of don't see the problem with using him
and he doesn't have money but he pretends he does

but i really need the money he doesn't have
even if just because i'm going deaf
that can't really happen

the tape player dropped too many times and
now it won't fast forward
so it can't rewind which is
not good

that i faked an essay in fifteen minutes i couldn't write in
that i fake a lot of things, that i lie too much

his make up is gorgeous and i love him because
freedom of expression

you're right, honey, so so right so
i admire you like really good sin

and i watch you because you're too good
mmph, if i could maybe i would
(be more awesome than this goddamn tape and toxic paints)

"let's get all the pretty boys and girls"
and you! you're precious like adorable french teachers

it's all friends only still but maybe just because i'm kind of paranoid
and my strangers scare me less than family.